Saturday, April 23, 2011

daily spiritual reflection - apr. 22

BIBLE READING FOR THE DAY: 
Friday of Holy Week
One of the criminals who hung there hurled insults at him: "Aren't you the Messiah? Save yourself and us!"
But the other criminal rebuked him. "Don't you fear God," he said, "since you are under the same sentence? We are punished justly, for we are getting what our deeds deserve. But this man has done nothing wrong."
Then he said, "Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom."
Jesus answered him, "Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise."
- Luke 23:39-43

THOUGHT: Good Friday is the day that we remember and mourn Jesus' suffering, humiliation and death (awesome op-ed about this here). When Jesus hung on a cross to die, he was crucified between two other criminals. This passage describes their interactions with him. I find it amazing that even after all the shame and suffering that Jesus went through (I just think of how I'd react, angry, hurt, withdrawn... complaining a lot about the pain) that he's still able to talk to these guys lovingly. I really love this exchange though-- I think it so perfectly conveys the internal dialogue that goes with a decision of faith in our broken world. 
The first criminal speaks the words of that voice in our heads that mocks God and rejects him-- when we see suffering that isn't fixed or when we see injustices that don't make sense, or when we feel lonely or unloved or hurting, it is so easy to say, "Well if you're really God, and you're really there, and you're really all that, then why aren't things different?" Essentially, if you're God, then do something, my timing, my way.
But the other criminal cuts in and speaks the words of a different voice-- a voice that reminds us to respect God because he is God, that reminds us of our own responsibility in the brokenness and injustice of the world, that reasserts God's goodness. And then, that criminal makes a statement of hope. Even after he has suffered shame and is all alone on a cross on some charge worthy of capital punishment, he chooses to hope in the man on a cross next to him, to trust God's ways, and to believe in the things Jesus has said about the kingdom he has coming. And he asks to be a part of it! 
And think how beautiful it is that a criminal hanging there reaches out and asks to be remembered by Jesus. This man was clearly of poor status, bad reputation, and all that stuff. He was by no means perfect. But he humbly asks to be remembered by Jesus, and Jesus reassures him (in the bestselling book of all time) that he has a place in paradise... 

CHALLENGE:  If you were hanging there with Jesus, what would you say to him? Does your internal dialogue about faith sound at all like these guys? Take the time this weekend to put yourself in these guys' shoes and try engaging in some kind of dialogue with Jesus during his last hours. See how the conversation goes. Allow for all the different thoughts/voices in your head to have a say and see how Jesus addresses each of them.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

daily spiritual reflection - apr. 21


BIBLE READING FOR THE DAY: 
33 Pilate then went back inside the palace, summoned Jesus and asked him, “Are you the king of the Jews?”
   34 “Is that your own idea,” Jesus asked, “or did others talk to you about me?”
 35 “Am I a Jew?” Pilate replied. “Your own people and chief priests handed you over to me. What is it you have done?”
 36 Jesus said, “My kingdom is not of this world. If it were, my servants would fight to prevent my arrest by the Jewish leaders. But now my kingdom is from another place.”
 37 “You are a king, then!” said Pilate.
   Jesus answered, “You say that I am a king. In fact, the reason I was born and came into the world is to testify to the truth. Everyone on the side of truth listens to me.”
 38 “What is truth?” retorted Pilate. With this he went out again to the Jews gathered there and said, “I find no basis for a charge against him. 39 But it is your custom for me to release to you one prisoner at the time of the Passover. Do you want me to release ‘the king of the Jews’?”
 40 They shouted back, “No, not him! Give us Barabbas!” Now Barabbas had taken part in an uprising.
~ John 18:33-40 ~

THOUGHT:
It was hard for me to pick a passage from the last day of Jesus' life. Trying to pick out one part of the day that was  most important is pretty close to impossible, at least for me. Every moment that was recorded from this day shows us something invaluable about God's great love and his plan for the salvation and redemption of this world. Every moment shows us something invaluable about the sacrificial life we are to live if we are followers of Christ. Though I could not find the most important passage, I found a passage that I think is an interesting moment in Jesus' last day.
I find this passage interesting because it shows a one on one conversation between Jesus and someone who has no religious affiliation. Up until this point Jesus has been questioned and beaten by the religious leaders who's main concern was trapping and silencing him, not finding the truth. The conversation in this passage is different because Pilate is actually looking for the truth. Jesus, rather than being condescending and judgmental in his conversation with Pilate, asks questions and speaks honestly and boldly about his identity and purpose. Jesus says that he came to testify to the truth and Pilate, instead of waiting for the answer to his question about truth from the person who calls himself "the way, the truth, and the life", turns away before hearing what Jesus would say. 
Pilate missed out, and so many times we miss out too. We miss out on hearing the truth of Jesus and who he is. Maybe we miss out because we are like the Jewish leaders who were threatened by Jesus' presence and afraid of losing control or power in our own lives. Maybe we miss out because we are like Pilate and we are too caught up in thinking about what the people around us want rather than who Jesus really is and what he wants of us. But Jesus is patient and persistent in sharing the truth with whoever will hear, even today. Especially today, on Good Friday, Jesus is inviting us to know and understand the truth of who he is and what he has done for us.

CHALLENGE:
Wherever you are in your walk of faith, today is the day to remember and mourn the death of Jesus. It's a day to think about why he died and what that means for our lives today. Even if you have never done so, today might be a great day to attend a Good Friday service. There are many happening all over New Haven and at least two happening on campus (information below). Check one out with the same question in mind that Pilate asked Jesus, "What is truth?", and look for the answer.

Elm City Vineyard Good Friday Service-
6-7p, Af-Am House, MP room

Yale Christian Fellowship Good Friday Service-
11pm, Af-Am House, Game room (downstairs)

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

daily spiritual reflection - apr. 20


BIBLE READING FOR THE DAY: 

The Parable of the Tenants
 And he began to speak to them in parables. "A man planted a vineyard and put a fence around it and dug a pit for the winepress and built a tower, and leased it to tenants and went into another country. When the season came, he sent a servant to the tenants to get from them some of the fruit of the vineyard. And they took him and beat him and sent him away empty-handed. Again he sent to them another servant, and they struck him on the head and treated him shamefully. And he sent another, and him they killed. And so with many others: some they beat, and some they killed. He had still one other, a beloved son. Finally he sent him to them, saying, 'They will respect my son.' But those tenants said to one another, 'This is the heir. Come, let us kill him, and the inheritance will be ours.' And they took him and killed him and threw him out of the vineyard. What will the owner of the vineyard do? He will come and destroy the tenants and give the vineyard to others. 10 Have you not read this Scripture:
 "'The stone that the builders rejected
   has become the cornerstone;

11this was the Lord’s doing,
   and it is marvelous in our eyes'?"

~Mark 12:1-11~



THOUGHT: 

One of the (many) amazing things about Jesus is his constant focus on teaching everyone within earshot about God. This passage is from just days before Jesus' crucifixion, and still you don't find him saying things like, "Not today guys. I've got a lot of stuff on my mind. I just need some 'me time'.", which would have been completely understandable and within his rights when you think about the unimaginable pain and humiliation he was about to suffer. Yes, this parable is a hard one to read/hear, especially for the Jewish leaders of his day, but how kind and gracious it was for him to continue teaching and lovingly correcting those around him so that they could have a better understanding of God and his character.

One thing that stands out to me about this parable is the horrible actions of the tenants, especially given that the land they are beating and killing people for is not theirs. The tenants didn't plant the vineyard. They didn't put up the fence, or dig the pit, or build the tower. Somehow the tenants have forgotten that they are stewards of the land they live on and not the owners. Greed, fear of losing their possessions, and possibly a false sense of "ownership" hardened their hearts and turned them against their landlord.

If God made this earth and all the creatures living in it, then he is the one who has ultimate ownership of it and everything in it. We, then, are all recipients and stewards of the time, bodies, gifts, and talents he's given us. The problem arises when we, like the tenants in the parable, forget this and begin to live as if we are protecting what's "ours" and trying to get more rather than living as if we are humble stewards of a life we have been graciously given. Too often I find that I am more like the tenants in this parable than a humble steward. I let fear, and greed, and an attitude of stinginess drive the decisions I make rather than the knowledge that all I have was given to me by a gracious and loving God.

The parable ends with the murder of the land owner's son and the land owner avenging his son by destroying the tenants. If I am like the tenants in this parable and God is like the landowner, then this ending would be pretty discouraging for me, to say the least. But God is unlike the landowner in that instead of destroying the sinners, he destroyed the power of sin through the death and resurrection of his son. This is good news, because not only has God told us how we should live, but he has given us all that we need in order to live that way.

CHALLENGE:

Think and pray about areas of your life that may be labeled "yours". These areas could be anything from time, decisions about your future, money, talents, your body, etc. Anything that comes to mind, ask God to help you to view them as a gift rather than a possession. Ask him to help you become a better steward of those gifts. Learning to be a better steward sometimes involves asking another person who is older and wiser to hold you accountable and show you how to be a better steward of your life. If this is something you feel that you should do, ask God to bring people in your path who can help you in this and be on the look out for his answer!

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

daily spiritual reflection - apr. 19

BIBLE READING FOR THE DAY: 
12 Jesus entered the temple courts and drove out all who were buying and selling there. He overturned the tables of the money changers and the benches of those selling doves. 13 “It is written,” he said to them, “‘My house will be called a house of prayer,’ but you are making it ‘a den of robbers.’”
 14 The blind and the lame came to him at the temple, and he healed them. 15 But when the chief priests and the teachers of the law saw the wonderful things he did and the children shouting in the temple courts, “Hosanna to the Son of David,” they were indignant. (Matthew 21:12-15)

THOUGHT: 
When Jesus goes places, he changes things.  He looks at wrong things and makes them right whether it's a sick body or cash-focused worship practices.  These "wonderful things" are often misunderstood by "teachers of the law," yet children recognize these acts.  This "Jesus change" is what eventually got Jesus killed.  He was too active.  He was too out there.  He was too much on mission.  The beauty of Jesus' life unfortunately provokes a reaction:  the threat of death.

CHALLENGE:  
What if Jesus came to your house and called it a house of prayer?  What would be different?  What would he be praying for?  What if he called our campus a house of prayer?  Sit on Old Campus.  Or Cross Campus. Or the Green.  Imagine Jesus approaching others.  What is he doing?  What is he saying?  If you feel led, do those same things.  

Note:  there will be pushback.  It's the same threat that represents death even if its manifestation is inaction.  Push through that in prayer.

Peace,
Josh

Monday, April 18, 2011

daily spiritual reflection - apr. 18

BIBLE READING FOR THE DAY: 
Second Day of the Last Week: Monday of Holy Week

As they approached Jerusalem and came to Bethphage on the Mount of Olives, Jesus sent two disciples, saying to them, "Go to the village ahead of you, and at once you will find a donkey tied there, with her colt by her. Untie them and bring them to me. If anyone says anything to you, say the Lord needs them, and he will send them right away."
  This took place to fulfill what was spoken through the prophet: "Say to Daughter Zion, / See, your king comes to you, gentle and riding on a donkey, / and on a colt, the foal of a donkey." (Matthew 21:1-5)
They went and found a colt outside in the street, tied at a doorway. As they untied it, some people standing there asked, "What are you doing, untying that colt?" They answered as Jesus had told them to, and the people let them go. When they brought the colt to Jesus and threw their cloaks over it, he sat on it. Many people spread their cloaks on the road, while others spread branches they had cut in the fields. Those who went ahead and those who followed shouted, "Hosanna!" "
Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!" 
"Blessed is the coming kingdom of our father David!"
"Hosanna in the highest heaven!" (Mark 11:4-10)
Now the crowd that was with him when he called Lazarus from the tomb and raised him from the dead continued to spread the word. Many people, because they had heard that he had performed this sign, went out to meet him. So the Pharisees said to one another, "See, this is getting us nowhere. Look how the whole world has gone after him!" (John 12:17-19)
Some of the Pharisees in the crowd said to Jesus, "Teacher, rebuke your disciples!"
"I tell you," he replied, "if they keep quiet, the stones will cry out." (Luke 19:39-40)

THOUGHT: This scene reminds me of the classic movie entrance scene... kind of like in Remember the Titans when the Titans enter onto the field with their dance and song (a little strange, and maybe somewhat foolish-- kind of like riding a donkey while being hailed as a king...) to great cheers from a crowd that loves them. But since they're doing something that wasn't always so popular at the time (they're messing with the status quo of racism in our country... much like Jesus was messing with the status quo of power and religious status during his time), the coaches and parents on the other side are going "Who do they think they are?", perplexed, a little afraid, and certainly not feeling friendly towards our heroic team.
Jesus' victorious final entrance refuses to play the game of violent power struggle that the rulers of his time were playing. Much like the Titans chose to sing, dance, and stand together instead of respond to racism with more anger or fear, Jesus chose to neither violently resist nor flee in fear... instead he made a joke out of the power games being played around him. This is what Shane Claiborne writes about this moment in Jesus' life:
"Jesus rode a donkey into Passover. Remember that Passover was the anti-imperial Jewish festival during which the Jews celebrated their ancestors' coming out of Egyptian slavery. With [the occupying] Roman soldiers lining the street, Jews gathered and waved palm branches, symbols of resistance to the empire. Passover was a volatile time, often marked by riots and bloodshed. (Recall that Antipas killed thousands of Jews in the streets at the festival.) When Jesus rode a donkey into this festival, it was a lampoon, like street theater at a protest. Scholars call it the anti-triumphal entry into Jerusalem. Imagine the president riding a unicycle in the Fourth of July parade. Kings did not ride donkeys. They rode mighty war horses accompanied by an entourage of soldiers. So here is Jesus making a spectacle of violence and power, riding in on the back of an ass. (And a borrowed one at that!)"
But I don't think it's just about politics and resistance. One of my favorite moments of this passage is when Jesus is told to silence those praising him and he says that he can't, because even if he succeeded in hushing this crowd, the very stones of the streets and buildings around him would cry out as well in praise. Everybody needs a hero, and the people praising Jesus finally have found theirs-- he works miracles, he defends the poor and marginalized, he teaches in such a way that even the religious leaders of the time are amazed, he's utterly charming, very popular, loves kids, he seems to love and know deeply already every person who meets him, and is totally humble and unconcerned with riches, titles, and status. 
But we all know that sometimes people can misplace praise-- just think of the idolization of celebrities in this country, or how quickly masses of people follow each other after silly things like Rebecca Black's newest youtube video (jk jk)... so Jesus points out that this is not just a popular fad. And when the religious leaders of the time (the Pharisees) who are so afraid of a sort of mass riot getting out of control tell him to stop the demonstration, he basically seems to say, Look, this demonstration of praise and resistance to the status quo and desire for change, it's not just a bunch of rabble-rousing. Even if all the people were to be quiet and you were to terrorize them into going back home and letting me enter here alone, the very earth and rocks that my father created would carry on their cries. This praise is rooted much more deeply than mere popularity and fad-thinking.

CHALLENGE:  I think that the Pharisees can teach me a lot about what it means to make decisions of faith and how to handle our fears, because they do a lot of the same things that I find myself doing in arguments and sticky situations.
First of all, they create a specific narrative that pits two sides against each other. Jesus certainly had pointed out some hard truths to the Pharisees before, but he never took sides against them. The Pharisees, on the other hand, made it into a competition: Jesus and his followers against the Pharisees and their followers. And the Pharisees wanted to get as many followers on their side as possible, and they wanted Jesus' followers to be quiet, and they wanted their side to win. The only thing is, it was never a competition, so Jesus wouldn't play-- or play by their rules.
Second of all, the Pharisees both acted and reacted out of fear. Because the Pharisees were in power, and religion to them was a way of maintaining that power, they had a lot to lose-- in wealth, in power, in status. And when you have a lot to lose, you start to act out of fear that you're going to lose it all.
It seems though, that a worldview of faith can combat this fear. Jesus doesn't seem to be afraid at all, despite the fact that he's responsible for a whole crowd of people who are out on the streets with the Roman guard and could be all slaughtered at any time by the Romans for imperial resistance. It seems to me that this is because Jesus is of the opinion that he is a steward-- he stewards the life he's been given, the relationships with people he's been given, the certain power and authority he's been given, all in faith that God is in charge. Somehow his faith makes him fearless.
So the Pharisees begged Jesus to make his crowd quiet, and when he refused they got really frustrated, because they saw things as a competition. They thought he didn't get it, they were terrified of the possible revolt. Jesus seemed like a foolish rabble-rouser, his popularity a threat to their power.
But this passage seems to say that it's actually the Pharisees who didn't get it. The passage shows that they were so afraid of losing what they had that they didn't listen to see what there was to gain. They didn't see that even the stones would cry out if the people were silent. They didn't see that there was another way to view the world, to live.

Fear and pride blinded the Pharisees to good things around them, and kept them from even considering making choices of faith or love(and trust) toward Jesus and his followers. Today, take the time to consider the most recent 1-3 times that you let fear or pride decide your actions for you. Consider lifestyle choices, choices of time management, choices of reaction and interaction with people-- especially in difficult situations, and choices of faith/interaction with God. Write these out, along with the narrative you created in your head to justify what you chose to do. See if you can see another narrative that is more true that would have allowed you to make a different choice. Try praying and see what other ways of thinking and viewing these situations might come to mind (often in prayer new ideas or relevant memories will be brought up-- just write them down as they come).

Saturday, April 16, 2011

daily spiritual reflection - apr. 16

BIBLE READING FOR THE DAY: 
You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit,
a broken and contrite heart,
you, God, will not despise.
--Psalm 51:16-17

THOUGHT: When I was younger, when I made my mom or brother mad, I used to be too ashamed to actually apologize, too proud to actually admit I had made a mistake. But then I'd try to make up for it by 'being better next time' or by doing something extra special for my mom, or getting back at my brother to prove myself. But all along what would have meant the most was me simply asking for forgiveness, and being humble enough to expose how sorry i felt.
I think that this psalm shows us that the heart of relationship (if life with God is the epitome of relationship itself) is actually that moment of sharing apology. Of being vulnerable, admitting our wrongs and our mistakes and our baggage and doing that together with someone else. Because when we both meet each other on those terms, it seems like we can finally see into each others' broken hearts and say sorry-- and out of the depths of our hearts, love and forgive and offer grace where we can both feel and see a need. We have nothing left to lose-- no pride or glory or power-- and in that space, we can actually be equals and love fully.
The greatest sacrifice isn't proving that we are right, it isn't even making these grand amends to prove our love or our own goodness and value. It isn't in power dynamics or authority or anything else. The greatest sacrifice, the one that brings delight and closeness, is the 'broken and contrite heart' brought together.

CHALLENGE:  Meet someone, this week, in their apology to you, in their broken-heartedness and hurt. Or, if the case may be, ask to be met by another in your own contrite, broken heart. Take the time to experience the depth of a relationship that uses love and grace to make two broken people offer each other newness and wholeness.
Or, if you feel like this Psalmist, and feel that what is needed in your life is a restoration of that closeness with this same God, or a better understanding of how he is sorry for how you are hurting and how he loves and accepts your heart: offer a broken and contrite spirit to God, and ask for him to pick you up, dust you off, and give you a big hug so that your heart can be made whole and new and joy can be restored. 

Friday, April 15, 2011

daily spiritual reflection - apr. 15

BIBLE READING FOR THE DAY: 
So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God's law; but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in my sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.
--Romans 7:21-25

THOUGHT: One of the age-old debates of philosophy is whether man is basically good or basically evil... I'm not sure if it comes down to good or evil, but I definitely feel like part of me is really loving and caring and part of me is just a jerk... and life is lived in tension between the two. To say that all I am is bad (to just give in to self-condemnation) is to deny my true worth or lovability and value, but to say that all I am is good and loving is completely overglorified and-- well, definitely not always true.
This passage says that all of that bad is separate though-- the writer calls it the 'sinful nature'-- the part of us that is separated from God. He says, yes, we live in that tension, but it's not because I, myself, the real, whole, God-created me, am wretched or sinful or bad. It's because as long as I live in this world, I must wrestle with having sin live within me, just as it exists in the world in various systems. But it isn't me. Rather, I, me, my-God-created-self, am different and separate. And God sees that me-- the pure, whole, brand-new me, beautiful, lovely, good, and loving. All of that potential to be like God, to live in his image, is right there, inside me.

CHALLENGE:  Today, don't let your mistakes, failings, or insufficiencies get you down. No matter how many times you fail or mess-up, don't despair. Always remember how good, and beautifully pure you are in God's eyes, made new any time you ask him to blink. =)